Each of us are not perfect, has and will have more time down the road of life. But it is important that after each fall so we can draw lessons for ourselves, recognize what you truly admirable, so stand up and next steps, make everything better.

"People living with HIV difficult to integrate into the community. Communities find it difficult or people living with HIV found it difficult "

Smile

I am also a human like you, also have dreams burning and try my best to make it possible to live happy and useful to society. I'm just less fortunate than you in that I was HIV.

Upon receiving the written notice is infected with HIV, stunned for a moment my limbs, no strength to stand, I want to rely on something, I panicked and locking himself in the room, do not want contact with anyone, no eating or drinking, that night I sat motionless in the dark, I could not sleep and did not feel sleepy, I have never seen so time passes slowly. I started thinking the price as it is better not to know much running, I will not have to face the disease that evil monster. But I do have sex. Or I die with that disease to people's memories of me forever beautiful. When everything was ready for her death, I hesitate attachment memories dear. Ripping my heart out to her pictures and my dear family, friends, neighbors, who have put Their faith in me, my parents suffering more then chúng sẽ được turn out When I'm Gone I love you I do, what to feed my easy Growing up like this. No, she has Taught Me: "There is not an end unless you do not try anymore, " Yeah, if I die now regarded as the end. I decided to risk telling his mother infected with HIV would receive sympathy dear mother, help me to have enough energy to live, I love this life too, I do not want to give it up easily as world. But I was wrong. All my hopes now completely collapsed. Most loved ones have abandoned me, they treated me like people with leprosy, my mother moved to a warehouse space next to the kitchen, my mother shop for all living things from the bowl, a chopstick, ... I do not hold or play with his little brother, the neighbor kids, everyone saw me as I approached her stop, I peeled citrus fruit to it, she went beyond that line, everyone I drink a glass of water which is all who by no action on, I find all the information to convince people that HIV is just one disease there are ways to keep yourself and keep those people around me, I can still live like normal people at least 5 or 10 years even 15 years. I can still do good for society. But all my efforts were only answered by the cold, and the fun of sticking words "frog out there away from it", look innocent eyes of a neighbor boy with his mother scolded her and she cried English small when she was near my stop without so hold back tears. I locked myself out of warehouse space for 3 months, separated from the outside world, as it is, only time I bring my lunch through the window slot, crying and telling me, she should also preliminary Director does not sit with me a long time, but the house is also much, I do not blame anyone, blame themselves only too easily and did not learn about the problems of society more and more information about HIV so that the star still strange to those around me too. I was separated from this world. So I live in this world there mean? I do not want to burden his family. I am in search of savings has a long corner integrity integrity also 455 thousand. I think that is enough, I left the house at night just in time to back words

"Go away, do not know when this trip can be the same again spend. " I walk along Highway 1A until morning, in the beginning I just wanted to go to a place that's quiet, somewhere that nobody knows who I am, I want to enjoy a full day before when I'm away from it forever. I think the sea, vast sea, I love the sea, I like watching the sunrise at sea as his childhood home, before the sea I am so small, all my sadness disappear before the grandeur of it. I want to shout back the sea as the day before, but now is not greeting the dawn again, but last goodbye ... "Nothing is finished, unless you do not try anymore, " saying he was still in me. I can not believe it anymore, but what is easier said easy.

Trains running throughout my childhood home from Lang Son Hai Phong as to bring all your memories and in my memories away forever. I do not know what to do anymore, I was lucky to get that smile, friendly and warm to the world, has long ago I felt that way. I did not realize I was getting hungry for a smile so sincere encouragement. Here I was living in love but you do not have siblings, but that's all for me, I can believe in yourself. Independent, self-care of yourself and help those less fortunate as my brothers and sisters in the club Lotus (An Lu Commune, Thuy Nguyen District, Hai Phong) has helped me, and now I'm supposed to live rest, while not long, but the true meaning. Embarrassed when I had once thought the world of revenge because the anesthesia, and regret for wasting more than three months alone in a shrinking shell. But it is over. I'm very treasured time remaining. With me now is when the fun dawn, I opened my eyes and know I still live and be useful to society, perfect moments that I have.

I want to send you a message:

"Let exchanged smiles as though tomorrow is doomsday.”

Pham Ngoc Cuong